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The Pagan ParlourCome In And Sit a Spell......"May the light guide your way and the Shadows keep you safe"
January 07 My friend...You know, I use to be on this computer everyday writing a little blurb about nothing and everything. I think my addiction to facebook games has taken over my life...*laffs* I also know there is a certain person out there that use to wait with baited breath to see that little star pop up beside my profile and would eagerly run to it to see what I was pondering on. I'm not sure why but she loved to read all my talks about nothing. It wasn't until today that I realized that this is the sign of a true friend. Don't get me wrong...I know we are friends but what an compliment it is that someone is so interested in you that they drop everything to read the most mundane!!!! Trust me....i am FAR from exciting!! I spoke at length with this person today which did my heart good because we hadn't spoken in some time. We talked about everything under the sun....husbands, children, friends, non-friends, holidays, faith....you name it. Its funny.....you could talk to someone everyday and if we aren't saying the right things how will that person ever know how important and loved they are????
I am very guilty of this. However...in saying this....when I do take the notion to tell someone how much I love them I hope it hits home and they realize how heartfelt I am.
This person had a rough start in life. This rough start has made her build this tough outer crust around herself and appear defensive and sometimes downright contrary......for lack of a better word. Now before you blow a sphincter here.......READ ON!!!!
Underneath of it all this person is so loving. She always gives me credit for teaching her things when in fact she has taught me so much. She has taught me slowly how to forgive. i may be a very loving person but i also have a side to me that can cut people out quicker then you can blink. I look at her in awe because she has had some pretty rotten things and people come into her life and yet if they need her....she is there. For being a young person she has really taken life by the horns and truly EXPERIENCED it. She has been in situations that I'm sure I would have curled up in a ball and cried for my mother....not her. She is one tough cookie. I think it is the fact that she is so tough that I forget how fragile our "toughies" can be. What is it in life that has made her such a toughie?? Is it an act??? Indeed it is. Her sadness and insecurities come out in a different way tho. Where most would sit down and cry or seek out someones shoulder she will stand forefront and fight til the death even if the battle seems irrational to most onlookers. It took me sometime to realize this and in this realization noticed I had similar quirks. It made me look at others differently. That edgy cashier who is probably overworked and underpaid...or the frustrated driver....or that disobediant child. We are all so similar. Everyone just needs acceptance and love and perhaps just a big ol' hug. I hope this person is watching when that little star pops up there and with every word is comforted by things that really should have been said so long ago.
You my Dear are such a wonderful person. I am so proud and lucky to be able to call you friend. I know the last year has been a trying one and it is with every fiber of my being I hope this new year is a better one. I know you are agonizing over a recent email to which I hope loses its hold on you. You have such beautiful qualities. I wish you could see yourself thru my eyes so you could see just how extraordinary you are in every area of your life....Mother, wife, friend, sister, daughter...you name it. I hope you realize that if there is anyone who is not a part of your life......it is their loss.
Loving you always.......~kell October 23 Talking about And There She is.....Isn't she soooooo Beautiful???
Quote And There She is.....Isn't she soooooo Beautiful??? March 25 Gotta Love Sundays!!!!!!!Sundays at our house is family day. It is also stay in bed cause I'm lazy day.....at least for me it is. I woke up first thing this morning but crawl right back into that warm bed and cuddled up close to that even warmer body!!!! Our daughter got up and ever so quietly closed our bedroom door so she could seal some time on the computer. My husband tossed and turned before he finally ogt up leaving me the WHOLE BED!!!!!!!!!!! I drifted back off into a slumber only to be woke up by the smell of fresh Tim Hortons!! See why i love this man??? As I type this I am still in bed with coffee and laptop by my side. A freshly showered and wonderful smellin' man just came in and gave me a bunch of loving and asked if I wanted another coffee. Ahhhhhh......life is good. Well i should get up and accomplish something today. I hear our truck running outside....someone just came to the door and I hear a bunch of laughter coming from the vicinity of the livingroom. Must go and investigate!!! Have a fanastic day!!! December 18 Great time but so happy to be home!!!!Merry Meet!!!!!!!!Well what a fantastic week and weekend. Late Wednesday night we packed everything up and went to my sisters for a few days. We had to take a load of wood and figured we might as well stay there because we had to be there for Saturday for a family gathering anyways. Being very family oriented this was a great idea. Last year we had alot of sadness in our family and so being together acts as a buffer for all concerned. My brother even came one night to visit for abit. Christmas or Yuletide as we call it has snuck up on me this year. I'm not sure where the year has gone. So Wednesday we visited with my sister and the fam and got into bed pretty late. I awoke to my sister beating me and when i came doewnstairs to yell at her found my Mother-in-law in her kitchen!!!!! Oh dear....rein in the cuss words!!! Good morning mom. she visited for a few hours over tea and laughter then was on her way to a big ol' craft store. Thursday night I even had a "surprise" visit from "E".....which i ruined. *laffin hard* I text her and said....I'M HERE!!!!!!!!!!!! Guess I wasn't suppose to do that. Us girls all visited until the inevitable yawn took over. I've been very tired lately...not sure if my meds are out of wack or I'm just plain puffed out. Saturday we had our Bailey family Christmas at Aunt Heather and Uncle Kims house. I love their house....it has such a warm inviting feel and its surrounded by crafts which just ignites curiosity in me.....you know like that little kid wanting to push that forbidden button!!! she made me the most beautiful present. I had emailed her earlier on in the year and told her I needed ideas for x-mas that a totally idiot could do....*laffs* Well she found one!!!! So I'm hoping to get a few made to see how people like them. We had dinner and looked at wedding photos while Kayla tried to beat everyone at air hockey. Thinking next year.....air hockey would be a good present for her!!!! However as always our time is very limited because we have such a drive home. Besides I was pretty spent. As wonderful as it is to see everyone it so nice to just crawl back into your own bed. My neck is killing me and my back is ruined from sleeping in different beds.....that doesn't sound the way it should...LOL. So here it is Monday and back to the grind. Shawn was up and gone before the birds sang....Kayla argued that it was too early and tried to convince me that was Shawns alarm going off ..not ours!!! So here I am surrounded by loads of laundry and presents from the weekend. Notice i'm on the computer.....my ambition has gone completely out the window. As much as i love the holidays sometimes i find them too busy for my liking. you don't have time to just slow down and enjoy. Last year I SWORE we were going NOWHERE for x-mas yet here we are coming out of the third weekend of being on the road!!!!!!! *laffs* Maybe next year we won't go anywhere. Well I should scoot. I do need to get my house in order. Best of the season to all of you.
Brightest Blessings.........~kell December 13 And There She is.....Isn't she soooooo Beautiful???Well awhile back I mentioned that there was an important wedding coming up that...unfortunately....I was not attending. As much as I wanted to and even tho my heart and soul was there.....I was not. It was my once neice...my friend...my confidante...my little sister...and essentially myself at one time getting married that day. Ohhhhhh.....how beautiful she was and how she shone. When I received the pictures I had a wee cry....but they were happy tears. Jess......I don't know if you venture onto my blog site at all but if you do, know this......I am so proud of you. What haunted you for so many years.....what you longed to have but for some unknown reason didn't....you have gone out and made your own little family. Ok.....once you add up your whole other side of inlaws....not so small *laffin* Enjoy every minute of it and bathe yourself in all this happiness because if anyone deserves it...it is you. I wish you nothing but immense joy. please don't wear out that DVD before I get to see it!!!!! i love ya so much. Congrats Sweetie.
PS......take a quick stop at my pictures.....and you'll see how breathtaking she is!!! November 14 DaVinci Code ROCKS!!!!!!WOW!!!!!!!!!!!! Watched the Davinci Code last night and I have to say it is AWESOME!!!! I can see why the Christian Religion is a wee bit upset tho. I figure people only get THAT angry when there is a grain of truth to it!!! *laffin in my best witch cackle* YEAH FOR THE PAGANS!!!! I hope it doesn't ruin the book for me tho as I wasn't finished reading it but could not help but run right out and rent the movie the minute i had the chance....I was THREE days late of the release date!!!! Two thumbs up to Dan Brown...Ron howard AND TOM HANKS!!! He did a superb job. Can't wait until Angels & Demons comes out. November 13 A Great WeekendWhat a great weekend!!!!! This weekend was my husbands birthday. We had to take a load to Fergus Ontario and so we decided to go to his family for the weekend. Well his sneaky mom decided to get the entire family together to celebrate with him. How wonderful it was because his family hasn't all been together for quite sometime. I got to meet all his sisters and their spouses and children....it was awesome. We were also joined by my sister, brother in law and my neice.....it turned out better then we could have ever anticipated. Saturday morning his mom and I went to a craft class to make a Christmas centerpiece which turned out FABULOUS if I do say so myself. Sunday we then went and spent time with Megan and then alittle shopping. It doesn't get much better then that. There is nothing like family. So happy to be surrounded by it...... October 31 Mystical, Magical SAMHAIN!!!!If You're celebrating Hallowe'en............Thank a Pagan!!!!!! Samhain, popularly known as Halloween, occurs in late October and early November. For most Pagans, this is our New Year, and a time for letting go of the old and looking ahead to the new. It marks the end of the harvest season. Since ancient times, Pagans have paid their respects to departed loved ones, ancestors, and guides in the Spirit World at Samhain. Sacred colors are Black and Orange. It is the festival of endings and transformation. I think Samhain is one of my favourite sabbats because its one of the few holidays that have remained PAGAN!!!! Revel in the joyous celebrations of our New Year, laugh with friends and family, dance around the cauldron and raise a goblet to welcome it in. Set a place for those who will visit, light a candle in your window to illuminate the path of the dead and sing the praises of the darkening months ahead. Now is the time to relax and feast upon the bounty of the season. A mystical, magical Samhain to you all!
October 25 I'm Such a Sap....I'm such a sap. I didn't have to go get our daughter after school today so I got some much needed chores done (while still in my jammies) I tinkered on my puter and looked at some pictures I received yesterday from my friend Barb. I added a few more to the site and while doing so poked in and around my blogs and the such. Suddenly I got all emotional and weepy. OH ya.......BIG TOUGH CREAM PUFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm not sure what came over me and why. I wasn't sad......actually I was very happy. I was sitting here reminiscing about our day and looking at our wedding pictures. I was smiling and chuckling at the wedding party and how goofy some of our friends are. I don't think the music in the background helped AT ALL!!!! Not that I didn't know his before but it really hit me how very special our wedding day was. It was the best day of my life. Normally I say "next to the birth of my daughter......but our daughter was at our wedding so that made it that much more special. It really was the best day ever. I perused the site and looked at how happy we are.....I am so lucky. Some people search their whole lives and don't find what we have. My speech rang in my head and then that made me weepy. HOLY CRAP.....I'm turning into a big puddle of GOO!!!!!!!!!!!!! *laffin* Earlier in the month I took a part of my speech and posted it because it is exactly how I feel about my parents. Well I'm going to do the same for my bridal party and my husband because they are essentially what keeps me going strong. I just love you all so much.......and i can feel the damn tears starting again so its time to CUT AND PASTE>>>>CUT AND PASTE!!!!!!!!!!!! *snickering* To my girls......
You make everything so special just by being a part of it. This weekend will be bitter sweet for me because our time together as always comes to an end all too quickly. But for now…. here you are, with me once again to share yet another life changing event…..that doesn’t yet involve me being cut off at the bar!!!! Without a second thought these amazing women will load up everything necessary and some not so necessary things and come to be by my side. We have named these times a “four corner call” These women are always there no matter if I'm happy, sad, angry, hurt, jealous, embarassed, ranting, raving, crying and most of all celebrating. These women always know what to do, what to say, how to act and when I need my butt kicked. I don't know what I'd do without these women…..all I know is I could not start this next phase in my life without them right there in the front line standing there beside me………..for they are my foundation. And even tho you must leave and go back to your lives......know I am always with you……anytime….anywhere….For without you I am nothing but together these four corners make up my world. Now I need to take a moment to single out my Matron of honor. To my, Matron of honor and my dear sister. Well…….not only are you my sister but you are my best friend. You have taught me so many things in my life and continue to do so even into our *cough* adult years. From the sumac trees to motherhood you have been that constant in my life that keeps me grounded. From our first secret Frost book to Silver we have tread...lost and found our path...again...together. Thank you for always being there with that unconditional love and understanding, that only you have. Even during those times when I didn’t quite love or understand myself I could always count on you to pick me up and carry me thru those times. I know you’ve always possessed that motherly instinct when it came to “your little Kelly” but sis…..I think I finally found that one person that I can truly say without hesitation will look after me as good as you have all these years. And thanks for being here to make sure he didn’t back out!!!!!!!
To my husband Shawn....as corny as i always thought this sounded in the movies......YOU COMPLETE ME.
When I first sat down to write my speech I sat there staring at the blank screen of my computer. I know…..me at a loss for words….this is a very rare occurance. I’m not sure how to take everything I feel for you and everything I love about you and make a summary of it so that the world could fathom how I feel. Nothing I could say could even scratch the surface because it isn’t one thing but many things that make me love you. I wish for a moment you could look thru my eyes and see yourself how I see you. Maybe then you could understand it isn’t the big things but the little things that make the difference. I love that you never leave without kissing me even when in a sleeping slumber. That goodbye is always followed up with I love you and that I still get butterflies when I hear you arrive home. I love that even after a long day of work you will walk hand in hand with our daughter to get ice cream just because and that even when surrounded by a bunch of men all day, you’ll still stop to pick me fresh daisies. I love that my family loves you and even more so that you love them because they are essentially what matter most in my life. But even above this…..I love the way you love me. I have waited for you my whole life. And the first time I heard your voice and saw your face I knew. Thank Gawd the ellis’s didn’t know tho because I’m sure they would have questioned why my work phone was turned off. Since that first day we have been faced with many hardships. I think it was thru these hardships that we found our strength….together. I know there will be bad times….I’m sure we will be tested but as long as I have you by my side I know we will succeed in all the endevours we may endure. Come grow old with me….we can pick daisies along the way.
Those we bits and pieces of my wedding speech.....I still choke up when reading it. sometimes my heart just get so full and that overwhelming feeling of how blessed we are that I think the only way to purge it, is to cry. How silly does that sound???!! I think old age is making me soft!!! Well.....there's a wedding coming up here shortly. I won't be attending however I will be sending all my good energy her way. I'm sure she will be stunning. I wish her everything that our wedding was because ours was perfect. I would love to be a fly on the wall just to see her shining so bright. I hope she knows how much I love her and wish her all the best in her new future. Its all she's ever wanted.....and no one deserves it more. Ok....I must get the heck outta her because Hallmark is calling......HAHAHAHAHAHA. Much love to everyone.
Brightest Blessings............~me
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